macau day 12 - goodbye

so i'm sitting at changi airport now, at the caffe ritazza having a ice mint tea with a choc chip muffin (which isn't very good by the way) and chilling out for a bit. i think i like being in the airport too much and perhaps sitting here for a while more would postpone the inevitable of returning home and hence spelling the end of my holiday and marking the return to the real world. well, what can i say? i think people take trips for many reasons, and for me, this trip was to run away from many things that i wasn't ready to face. and i thought that going away might help me clear my head a little, but i guess i was kidding myself. somehow, all i did was to avoid the things i didn't want to face up to and distract myself for the past 10+ days and now that i'm back in sg, i realise that although time has passed and kept moving, everything i left behind is still here and some might even perhaps be worse than before i left? i dunnoe. i think there is a lesson to be learnt in all of this. one thing i hate to admit is that i'm an escapist, always choosing to run away from problems instead of confronting them. i wonder if i'd ever grow up and one day stop being such an idealist and when things seem to fail me, stop running away and actually being more proactive and at least attempting to put things right (whether or not i succeed is besides the point, at least i have to try rite?)...

okokie, this is turning quite contemplative (can you blame me? i'm quietly sitting alone at a cafe with nice cuppa, i guess this is inevitable! haha~) but it shouldn't be so. i'm supposed to finish what i started and document the rest of my trip. on that note, i must say i'm totally addicted to travelling with my lappy. it's so so good to have it around to chat on msn or upload photos, source for information for travelling, blog etc. it makes things so much more convenient. as you can all see, this trip is so well recorded. i mean it might be boring for all you guys to read it, but at least i can always read this days down the road and remember my trip more vividly. and i must say, being able to chat with my frens online all the time is really a super plus point. haha!

all right, back to the trip, today we got back from MGM in the morning at abt 7+ cuz we were up playing jackpot all night. haha. no there were no major winnings, but it was really fun just playing for the thrill of it, and besides i didn't spend much. a little $ lasted me a couple of hours. haha~ so i woke up at 1pm, seriously stoned and tired and showered and started packing. i also went down to the supermarket to get my aunty the spicy bake chicken mix that she requested for, and stocked up on foodstuffs to bring back to SG for everyone. after all i have extra MOP left and i really hate to come back empty handed. even though this was a budget trip, i would still like to have a little something for the people i care about back here.

after all the packing, i made G + S a last cuppa coffee each (this is turning into a signature drink i think, i shall forever be remembered as "the coffee girl") cuz they were both so so tired. i think they seriously over stretched themselves the first week of our visit with all the nights of crazy activities. S was sick the entire time they were in HK, i think we were all glad we didn't stay over with them, cuz she would have then felt obligated to go out with us and then she would really be more sick than she is now. she said she slept all 3 days and G went off by himself at times but she didn't leave the room at all. anyways, i also got her herbal tea on the way up, let's hope she gets better soon!

after all the packing, i also cleaned up the entire room and kitchen cuz i didn't want to leave the room in an awful state, after they were so kind and generous to let us have the house and stay there for free. it was like the least i could do. so i cleared as much as i could, and wiped everything - floor, surfaces etc. after the massive clean up efforts, we were finally ready to leave. i think they were sad to see us go. actually i felt strange leaving. i mean after so many days, we were practically used to having each other around the house and seeing each other all day long, at all sorts of wierd hours in the day i might add. haha~ and S said that the house would be so quiet without us after we left, and i thot that was sweet. i was kinda afriad we were making too much of a ruckus but i guess in someways, perhaps they'd be glad to have some peace and quiet restored in their lives. the good news is that they'd be in SG somewhen the end of the month. hopefully they'd be here for my bday since we caught G's bday, we might just have another excuse to party again! =)

so we packed fish fillet burgers from macs to smuggle on board and got to the airport at 715pm to catch the 830pm flight, and it's goodbye macau. it's been a good 12 days, and i did enjoy the insane amount of partying and casino-ing. it was an interesting experience and i did learn and see new things. i will miss the free water from the casinos that i made a point to "collect" and the free shuttle buses everywhere from the casinos that are provided to everyone. i will also remember fondly the beautiful scene of the sea (from the house and the travelling we made daily from taipa to macau island across the bridge), the relaxed pace of life and the lack of speeding cars and traffic jams. yes, macau is a sleepy town, but i think not having the hectic rushing of sg really makes me happy. it's really a rare luxury.

on the plane back, i fell into deep sleep for about 2 hours, completely knocked out. i awoke at 1130, surprised that i slept all the way through despite not being very comfy on the cramped seats of jetstar. as we were descending in the last about 20min, i looked out of the window and i saw the dark sea with so many ships on it. the ships were all lit, and for a moment, it was like looking at the milky way - all dark with millions of stars scattered all over. it was truly a beautiful sight. pity i didn't manage to get a pic of it, but i think it was a moment where i was once again reminded of how beautiful the world is, and how wonderous it could be, if only one remembered to take the efforts to see and appreciate it.